Hey everyone! Long time, no see! I’ve been terribly busy with summer activities/work/Bible Bee, and have sadly neglected this poor blog. I do have several recipes that I need to sit down and get published, so be looking for those!
Today I do have some big news to share with you. I have decided to attend Colorado Christian University for the 2018-2019 school year! I am excited to see what God has in store for me to learn through this experience. I’m registered for classes, have an apartment and roommates, and am really looking forward to piano lessons and practice time!
You remember my old post Options? Well, God has made a path pretty clear by providing financially for me! One of the ways I obtained scholarships was through a full-tuition competition in January, where I got to stay on campus for the first time. Unfortunately, I didn’t get the full-tuition scholarship, but through various smaller scholarships and grant money, I have almost gotten the entire tuition amount provided for! Praise God!
I’m heading down to campus again this week for the Young Christian Conservatives Leadership Conference, which, again, gets me scholarships. First time flying on my own – that’ll be interesting! Hopefully I’ll have some AIP and solo travel tips after this experience!
As someone with huge diet restrictions, I have been able to get a meal plan waiver so that I can cook for myself. BUT that takes a lot of equipment in my own kitchen! I have an Amazon wishlist assembled of the basic things I need (plus some fun stuff, haha). Take a look, if only for your own inspiration! But if you feel inclined to help me out, I’d be quite appreciative. :)
So, follow me on this journey! I’m excited to share with you the process I took to get here – I already have a bunch of blog posts and tips that I’m looking forward to publishing!
See y’all around!
There are so many different types of sickness. Mental illness, heartbreak, emotional sickness. But today, I’m going to talk about plain old sick. Well, chronic plain old sick.
You see, when I sat down to write this, I had an idea in my head of what I was going to write about. But, a few minutes in, I can’t remember what that was.
This post will probably sit on my computer for days while I forget to take a picture – and then have to actually expend the energy to get it.
Guys, it’s hard to be sick. If you are sick, I want to encourage you to take time to heal. Take initiative to heal. And believe me, it’s hard not to feel hypocritical when I say that. I’m the queen of not working to get better.
Don’t push yourself. I know that under normal circumstances, ‘pain is gain’. But not often in this case. Give yourself a break!
I know that it’s tempting to hide how sick you are. To put on your ‘tough-girl’ face. To laugh it off. Believe me, I do it all the time. I want to maintain my status as a hard-working, unbreakable Alaskan.
But you have to face it. I simply can’t carry ten gallons of water at a time from the watering hole. I can’t shovel snow for two hours. I can hardly haul any wood. And I tremble when I think about trying to wrestle an angry goat. Sometimes I hate what I’ve become. I compare myself to the early teenage me, and grind my teeth in frustration over what I can’t do now.
If you hide what you can’t do, if you hide that you’re breaking, you’ll break faster. Be willing to say, “I can’t do that.” Be willing to SWALLOW YOUR PRIDE and ask for help.
You know that feeling when you hesitate to go eat at someone’s house because you know that, no matter how hard they try, you probably won’t be able to eat half of what they prepare? You know that feeling that you don’t want to participate in an activity because you’re afraid that people will slow down and show pity on you? Too often, half of that feeling comes from pride. Don’t allow your pride to come between you and others. Instead, be humble, willing to be thankful for the kindness that others show you. God made us social creatures, even the severe introverts such as myself. God intended us to lean on and depend on each other in our weakness.
Let yourself depend on others. Rely on God’s system.
At the same time, don’t pretend to be worse than you are. Don’t use your illness as an excuse to be served. And be looking for ways that you can help and encourage others. Look for ways where you, though you might not be physically or mentally strong, can help someone else in an area where you might be stronger.
Paul said to the Corinthians, “I do not mean that others should be eased, and you burdened, but by an equality, that their abundance may supply your lack, and that your abundance should supply their lack, that there may be equality.” (2 Corinthians 8:13-14, probably slightly paraphrased)
That’s how God made people to work, and being sick can be a huge reminder of that!
Finally, don’t allow your sickness become your identity. When we got home after three months of traveling, I was thoroughly fed up with detailing why I couldn’t eat so much to a different person every. Single. Night. And yet, I still find myself talking about my sickness way too much. Allow yourself to enjoy life and not always dwell on the hard part. Allow yourself to have ambitions, and keep yourself busy with things you enjoy. Some things won’t be possible, but when you’re sick, you probably have time on your hands. Fill those hours, don’t allow yourself to be absorbed by your sickness. Spend time with the people around you, use this time to invest in others!
I think the key word in that paragraph is invest. Find the gifts and opportunities that you can take advantage of when you’re sick, and use this time to develop those!
Remember to rely on God – He can be your strength. Be joyful! Find the good things in your life, and enjoy them to the fullest!
To read Sick - Part Two: Caring for Your Sickie, head over to my dear friend Bella's blog, Worth It All.
I opened up D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones' book on spiritual depression, and the first thing I saw was Psalm 42:5: "Why art thou cast down, O my soul? And why art thou disquieted in me? Hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise Him for the help of His countenance."
This kind of hit home, because I had literally been sitting there in church twenty minutes earlier, fretting about my college choices. What major do I actually choose? Music, science, pre-med, or psychology? What kind of music major? Should I even be pursuing college? Or should I be pursuing this college?
So when I read that in the book, I closed it and started writing this instead.
We worry about our options way too much. We drive ourselves crazy over the simplest choices. Sometimes I wish there were less options in this world. I wish I knew what the right choice was. I want to honor God, but sometimes, I don't know which path will honor Him. Sometimes I feel like any of the doors open to me would be honoring Him.
And I bet you feel that too.
You know what worry is? It's a lack of trust in God. It's a reliance in ourselves. It is us trying to twist circumstances under our own control.
We were staying with a Bible Bee family recently, and I found myself talking with the mom in the kitchen one evening. She has sent two off to college so far, and something that she told me that was so encouraging was, "God isn't going to let you take the wrong path if you are trying to honor Him. He'll make it clear where you are supposed to go. He won't let you do something that you're not supposed to."
Proverbs 16:9 says, "A man's heart plans his ways, but the Lord directs his steps." That's something that we've seen true in our family for generations. And it's a bit of a comfort to the flighty person like me.
You can have the best-laid plans, an ambitious but realistic future. You can have your whole life figured out to a 't' - but God can change it in an instant.
Whatever crossroads you are standing at now, be encouraged that, while there might be a couple of right roads to choose from, God will close the doors to the wrong roads. He will guide you to the right place.
So, while you have the responsibility of making wise choices, you also have the comfort that if you are consulting God over it and your goal is to please Him, He will help you make the right choices for your life.
Trust Him and press on!